Since I began working with Tanya, I feel I have grown in so many ways that I would have never considered. The thought that my illness could have stemmed from my deep commitment to self-criticism and lack of self-love, and martyring myself as a “beast of burden” had never occurred to me. The onset of symptoms included visual and hearing loss, capped with facial paralysis. After extensive work-ups from experts, a “professional opinion” of Multiple Sclerosis was all I had. Given there was no hard evidence pointing to this assumption, I proceeded to look elsewhere for answers. In reflection, I absolutely believe my symptoms were the product of an unattainable goal of “perfection,” extreme stress—and guilt for decisions and choices that didn’t support that goal—and the fact that regardless of whether I succeeded or failed at a physical or mental endeavor, it was never good enough. This resulted in me physically breaking myself down, both in body and spirit. I believe I achieved critical mass when I became ill with a recurring virus two months prior to the onset of my symptoms. Without a doubt I feel this perfect storm of personal behaviors, coupled with a trigger, led to my symptoms.

While working with Tanya over the past 10 months, my physical symptoms have continued to improve, and I feel I have made gains in all areas of my life. Not only do I feel more at peace with my current circumstances and my contributions to such circumstances, but I have become a more patient and loving father, a more cooperative husband, and a compassionate caregiver. I have also learned to give myself some slack, I expect progress and not perfection, and I love my life for what I have, and don’t dwell on what I do not have. Tanya’s tools, especially the therapeutic meditation practices, are effective at helping me find positive daily mindsets, and rebounding daily during stressful episodes. They also quickly guide me to restful sleep at night. I’m grateful for the guidance and tools Tanya has given me.